alone

Do you ever think about your future and get sad? Not because you think that you will not be sucessful but because your afraid that you will be alone for the rest of your life. Lately I have been doing a lot of thinking about this. I think that its hard to determine but I honestly believe that I will be alone for the rest of my life. Part of me thinks that I will never be good enough for someone else but then another part of me thinks that I am afraid to be with someone because I do not want to get hurt again. They say that there is somebody for everyone but do you honestly believe this?

New to this!

Okay so this is my first ever blog so bare with me on this. I have  so many thoughts running through my head right now. I am hurt, angry, pissed, tired and overwhelmed. I feel like people that should be in my life are not and the people that I do not want in my life are still here no matter how hard I try to get them out of it. ugh I feel like I should be able to trust the people that I call friends however they are showing me that they are not there for me when I really need them to be.

I have so much on my plate right now I just lost my job and that is stressing me out. i have a two year old that depends on me and I go to college full time which has been burning me out lately. My only outlet is listening to music which is helping a lot.

Well I will be back tomorrow!