Organizing life.

Sorry I have abandoned my blog but life has been crazy busy lately! I have gone into life remolding if that is what you want to call it. The first thing I have done is eliinating some of my bad habbits> I have been trying to cut out the un-necessary items in my life and things that consume most of my time.
The first thing I have done is shut off my cell phone and got a home phone. I found myself constantly on my cell and it was a waste of my valuable time. secondly I have decided that I am going to do a littl ehomeschooling for matthew. In order for me to start that I wanted everything organized and simplified. I went through matthew's closet and got rid of at least four boxes of clothes that I thought either he did not need or he had out grown. i then got all of his clothing for school ready and put each outfit individually into a fezzer bag so i can just grab a bag and go!
I then began going through my items in the house if i had not used it in a year it left the house. I donated all the toys and clothes to the domestic violence shelter and gave my old prom dresses to angels closet for low income girls to enjoy them! I also picked up a new diet! i have been trying the Medifast diet and so far I feel amazing! I have more energy and I feel like i can take on the world!!! :) I also began having a once a month girl time with a good friend I met through some support groups> thi stime is amazing! My new hobbie is canning! i learned how to make homade jams and I have been enjoying canning now! I keep thinkig about everything else i can stick in a can! well that is it for now! good night world.

alone

Do you ever think about your future and get sad? Not because you think that you will not be sucessful but because your afraid that you will be alone for the rest of your life. Lately I have been doing a lot of thinking about this. I think that its hard to determine but I honestly believe that I will be alone for the rest of my life. Part of me thinks that I will never be good enough for someone else but then another part of me thinks that I am afraid to be with someone because I do not want to get hurt again. They say that there is somebody for everyone but do you honestly believe this?

New to this!

Okay so this is my first ever blog so bare with me on this. I have  so many thoughts running through my head right now. I am hurt, angry, pissed, tired and overwhelmed. I feel like people that should be in my life are not and the people that I do not want in my life are still here no matter how hard I try to get them out of it. ugh I feel like I should be able to trust the people that I call friends however they are showing me that they are not there for me when I really need them to be.

I have so much on my plate right now I just lost my job and that is stressing me out. i have a two year old that depends on me and I go to college full time which has been burning me out lately. My only outlet is listening to music which is helping a lot.

Well I will be back tomorrow!